Having to go into the office everyday to accomplish in batch what I used to do from home in bits and pieces has been very taxing. Added to, and perhaps even exacerbated by my burgeoning responsibility, Parker started falling apart all the time. I was at my whit's end. I spoke to my mom who told Lestelle who reiterated her invitation to come to women's conference with her. I just really couldn't see how I could steal away an entire day when I was hardly getting sleep or regular meals.
That Friday was not only payroll, but the filing deadline for quarterlies. Everything was more complicated because we had to change all of our work accounts as well as our personal. By the time I left work Thursday the quarterlies were filed. Dave had to go back at night and I went with him to complete payroll. When I left that night, the week's work was done enough. I was too tired to plan Friday's list of things to do, so I just went to bed. As I was saying my prayers, I pleaded with the Lord to help me shoulder these burdens. I simply was not capable of doing it alone.
Friday morning I got up and made breakfast, started bread, and was dressed in my workout clothes deciding to get moving when the phone rang. It was Lestelle and she just wanted to make sure I couldn't meet her for Women's Conference. It was 8:10 and I would need to leave in 35 minutes if I were to make it. Dave heard me talking and offered to take Aleah for the day. And so as quick as that, I was getting ready and leaving for BYU.
When I met up with Lestelle at the Marriott Center for the opening session, I told her I didn't even know what I wasn't doing today!
The entire day was power-packed with just what I needed. I cried in every class as the Spirit confirmed the truths that had been prepared for me to receive that day. It wasn't until probably 1:30 that I remembered that I had started bread dough in the bread machine and it was going to be all over. That was a good joke. But I was gathering spiritual food.
I was going to leave before the closing session because Cambry had a YW camp fundraiser dinner. But when I called home to see how things were, Dave's report was that Parker was being terrible and I didn't want to leave the Garden of Eden just yet, so I sent notice that I was staying through the end of the conference.
Once again, Elder Oaks shared something just for me. Women's Conference was an answer to my prayer the night before. I came home fortified, and in time for Cambry's dinner. I cried as I shared some of the things I'd learned with Dave. I felt that Dave and I knew that raising Parker would be a challenge but that together we could do it. I could almost hear Dave saying, "It'll be fun. Beauty, we'll do it together. Come on, it will be fine." I was ready to slay dragons again. Which is a good thing because here there be dragons.
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